Ex used to say sometimes that he "couldn't take universal priorities." I always thought that was kind of stupid -- actually, I realize now that a lot of what he said was -- but today I kind of realized what he meant.
Ex always told me that senior year is one when everything changes. Again, I thought he was being overdramatic (and again, he was a good percentage of the time), but...well, it's true. In a good way, I think. Maybe it's senior year, and maybe it's just me learning how to love myself, but I feel like I've gotten braver. Not like "let's go skydiving" brave, but standing up for myself. Hanging out who I want to hang out with. Not letting people walk all over me.
I mean, I'm not a total wimp, but I'm definitely more of a passive personality. Conflict makes me cringe. But it was today that I really realized how I've grown, and strengthened, I guess.
Mkay, so I just typed three or four very angry paragraphs where this is now, but they're not worth keeping. Backspace.
Anyways, I realized that I'd changed when I almost confronted Mrs. B in River Review today. I almost stood up during that club meeting and said look, we're not going to be able to do this. But then I realized it probably wasn't the best venue -- trust me though, I'm going back to talk to her tomorrow or something.
Anyways. On to the positive of the day :)
I have a voice lesson with Mrs. Riddle this afternoon, which is always fun. We're picking some pieces to work on, just for fun or whatever, to help me grow in my voice and experiment with range and tone and stuff. Basically playing around, having a good time. I'm super psyched.
So, when she asked me a song suggestion (here's another place where I got brave), I suggested "Out Tonight," from Rent. And holy cow you guys, that is a heck of a song. But I absolutely love it, and I absolutely love Rent, so I threw it out there. And she got really excited! She thinks it's a perfect song to draw me out of my comfort zone, haha.
So we're doing Rent, and we're also going to be doing Sara Bareillis' "Gravity." This is a positively beautiful song, and I'm so happy to be singing it. Mrs. Riddle also wants me to learn to play it on the piano - I have the sheet music for it, it'll just take a little time to practice it. She has this idea of me being this piano-playing-song-singing double threat. Hah. This'll be interesting.
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