Geez, has it really been 100 posts? Though I know I'm crazy behind, haha.
I'd love to make this long, but this keyboard is loud and I have orange sherbert downstairs calling me.
To recap today, Dad and I went up to Elder Mountain to look for tadpoles to put in our water garden at home. No tadpoles, but we DID find a bunch of baby salamanders - we snagged one and put it in our pond, where it is happily chilling out. Elder Mtn was gorgeous today...seriously, I could have stayed there forever. And we were in the middle of the woods looking for tadpoles - literally could not think of a better way to spend my Saturday. Beautiful, beautiful weather.
The Lehigh Facebook group is stressing me out. I'm terrified to post in case people judge me -- I'd so rather wait to meet people in person. Impress them with my good lucks and charm and all that.
In other news, my favorite theater group STARKID POTTER is releasing their newest full-length musical on YouTube tonight at 9 pm central...so 10 pm EST. May or may not watch it right away, but I'm TOTALLY watching it tomorrow! They performed it in Chicago in February, and now STARSHIP will finally be online! The album's doing super well on iTunes - you should check it out. Darren Criss wrote all the music. because he is an adorable, beautiful man.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
run from the lights, run from the night, run for your life
Check out my Tumblr for my exciting shenanigans of the evening! I feel either really brave or really stupid.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Saturday, April 23, 2011
what a crazy week.
Hello friendlies, remember me? Sorry I haven't posted in so long - actually, I haven't been anywhere on the Internet recently. Here's a quick summary of my past week:
Tuesday -> flew to Lehigh! Dad and I got to Allentown around four o'clock, and we spent the rest of the afternoon wandering around Bethlehem. Night: curled up and watched Glee. Slept.
Wednesday -> campus tour! It was one of those accepted-students days, so we did a lot of mingling and sat through a bunch of info sessions. I sat in on an Intro to Psych class, which was neat :)
And thenn our flight back to Nashville got cancelled. So we're stranded in Chicago, frantically rebooking flights for the next day so we could actually get home.
Thursday -> woke up at 4:30 am to catch our flight, got home around five. Crashed.
At the beginning of the week, the obnoxious head cold I'd gotten during tech week seemed to have gone away. False. I am sick as a dog, you guys - it's positively disgusting. On top of having a godawful sinus infection, I was at the doctor's yesterday and got the first Gardasil shot. And I passed out.
Yeah. Literally passed out. It's really embarassing.
So I'm at home lying around like a slug because I'm sore all over, running a fever, and my arm is swollen. It's lovely.
BUT, I love this extended weekend. Especially since I haven't had school since Monday.
Yeah...I got nothing.
Tuesday -> flew to Lehigh! Dad and I got to Allentown around four o'clock, and we spent the rest of the afternoon wandering around Bethlehem. Night: curled up and watched Glee. Slept.
Wednesday -> campus tour! It was one of those accepted-students days, so we did a lot of mingling and sat through a bunch of info sessions. I sat in on an Intro to Psych class, which was neat :)
And thenn our flight back to Nashville got cancelled. So we're stranded in Chicago, frantically rebooking flights for the next day so we could actually get home.
Thursday -> woke up at 4:30 am to catch our flight, got home around five. Crashed.
At the beginning of the week, the obnoxious head cold I'd gotten during tech week seemed to have gone away. False. I am sick as a dog, you guys - it's positively disgusting. On top of having a godawful sinus infection, I was at the doctor's yesterday and got the first Gardasil shot. And I passed out.
Yeah. Literally passed out. It's really embarassing.
So I'm at home lying around like a slug because I'm sore all over, running a fever, and my arm is swollen. It's lovely.
BUT, I love this extended weekend. Especially since I haven't had school since Monday.
Yeah...I got nothing.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
I've got a little writing for y'all today. Taken from a Joseph Conrad excerpt we're working through in Wells' class.
A work that aspires, however humbly, to the condition of art should carry its justification in every line. And art itself may be defined as a single-minded attempt to render the highest kind of justice to the visible universe, by bringing to light the truth, manifold and one, underlying its every aspect. It is an attempt to find in its forms, in its colors, in its light, in its shadows, in the aspect of matter and in the facts of life what of each is fundamental, what is enduring and essential - their one illuminating and convincing quality - the very truth of their existence. The artist, then, like the thinker or the scientist, seeks the truth and makes his appeal.
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It's a little thick, but it's gorgeous. Just read it again, taste the words.
I'm off to PA tomorrow for a final tour of Lehigh :) Exciting stuff. I really, really hope that's where I'm meant to be.
A work that aspires, however humbly, to the condition of art should carry its justification in every line. And art itself may be defined as a single-minded attempt to render the highest kind of justice to the visible universe, by bringing to light the truth, manifold and one, underlying its every aspect. It is an attempt to find in its forms, in its colors, in its light, in its shadows, in the aspect of matter and in the facts of life what of each is fundamental, what is enduring and essential - their one illuminating and convincing quality - the very truth of their existence. The artist, then, like the thinker or the scientist, seeks the truth and makes his appeal.
--
It's a little thick, but it's gorgeous. Just read it again, taste the words.
I'm off to PA tomorrow for a final tour of Lehigh :) Exciting stuff. I really, really hope that's where I'm meant to be.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
fatal flaws
things I am not proud of::
jealousy
insecurity
bitterness
failure to change
avoidance
spite
the "screw the world" attitude
failure to truly let go
fear of love
fear of judgment
fear
procrastination
manipulation
levity
but mostly jealousy & insecurity. I still compare myself to everyone around me, convincing myself I'm not good enough, that I have to be Better to have worth.
shelby makes me so, so unhappy. there are not words. I feel like she's worked her way into the tender parts of my soul and is shoving thorns into me. I just want to yell from the rooftops, to scream and tell the world how she broke me, how I'm weak and still cannot get over Her.
I don't deal well with betrayal. loyalty is my lifeblood.
I haven't been taking my Prozac. Partly to spite my parents - because hah, if they don't care, why should I? - and partly as a sort of self-flagellation. I'm not a masochist, but sometimes I feel like it's my only way to be heard.
hairspray ended today. I have burning spots on my collarbones where peoples tears fell. I chose to skip the cast party. I need some time alone with myself and my thoughts.
I need some time to just be.
jealousy
insecurity
bitterness
failure to change
avoidance
spite
the "screw the world" attitude
failure to truly let go
fear of love
fear of judgment
fear
procrastination
manipulation
levity
but mostly jealousy & insecurity. I still compare myself to everyone around me, convincing myself I'm not good enough, that I have to be Better to have worth.
shelby makes me so, so unhappy. there are not words. I feel like she's worked her way into the tender parts of my soul and is shoving thorns into me. I just want to yell from the rooftops, to scream and tell the world how she broke me, how I'm weak and still cannot get over Her.
I don't deal well with betrayal. loyalty is my lifeblood.
I haven't been taking my Prozac. Partly to spite my parents - because hah, if they don't care, why should I? - and partly as a sort of self-flagellation. I'm not a masochist, but sometimes I feel like it's my only way to be heard.
hairspray ended today. I have burning spots on my collarbones where peoples tears fell. I chose to skip the cast party. I need some time alone with myself and my thoughts.
I need some time to just be.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
today was just lovely
Eller's talk and lunch were today. It is absurd how much I love that girl.
I've known Eller for something like twelve years, isn't that ridiculous? But she's really only come back into my life in the past year or two.
Her lunch was so wonderful today. Sitting in the sun with good food, beautiful weather, wonderful friends. Days like today just make me happy to be alive.
I've known Eller for something like twelve years, isn't that ridiculous? But she's really only come back into my life in the past year or two.
Her lunch was so wonderful today. Sitting in the sun with good food, beautiful weather, wonderful friends. Days like today just make me happy to be alive.
Monday, April 4, 2011
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
Some lyrics for you lovelies:
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go,
Somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.
somewhere only we know, originally by keane. I've been listening to the glee version, though. ain't I predictable.
--
Rehearsal got called off because of "inclement weather." It's kind of like, seriously? There wasn't anything we could have done - obviously we couldn't have stayed, it was a safety thing - but we neeeed those hours of rehearsal. Anyways. Tomorrow.
I gave Sarah Cobble a ride home tonight after practice got canceled, and it brought to mind just how much I love that entire family. I basically grew up with the Cobbles - we used to go to their house after church on Sundays, and Emma and I would play with Rachel and Sarah for hours. I always hung with Rachel, and I absolutely idolized her.
We lost touch with the Cobbles for a few years, but then Rachel transferred from CCS to GPS, and Sarah joined Emma in sixth grade. I got to know Rachel all over again through theater - honestly guys, it's a family. There's no other way to describe it.
Rachel calls me her angel, but it's really the other way around. Both Cobble girls are genuine lights in my life. Sarah is one of the reasons I can drag myself through particularly tough days like day, and just being around her for a minute perks my day up exponentially. There's just something about that pure, unconditional love that can heal anything.
--
This rain is nuuuuuts. Since when did TN weather get so crazy? I feel like I'm about to have my house cave in on me.
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go,
Somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.
somewhere only we know, originally by keane. I've been listening to the glee version, though. ain't I predictable.
--
Rehearsal got called off because of "inclement weather." It's kind of like, seriously? There wasn't anything we could have done - obviously we couldn't have stayed, it was a safety thing - but we neeeed those hours of rehearsal. Anyways. Tomorrow.
I gave Sarah Cobble a ride home tonight after practice got canceled, and it brought to mind just how much I love that entire family. I basically grew up with the Cobbles - we used to go to their house after church on Sundays, and Emma and I would play with Rachel and Sarah for hours. I always hung with Rachel, and I absolutely idolized her.
We lost touch with the Cobbles for a few years, but then Rachel transferred from CCS to GPS, and Sarah joined Emma in sixth grade. I got to know Rachel all over again through theater - honestly guys, it's a family. There's no other way to describe it.
Rachel calls me her angel, but it's really the other way around. Both Cobble girls are genuine lights in my life. Sarah is one of the reasons I can drag myself through particularly tough days like day, and just being around her for a minute perks my day up exponentially. There's just something about that pure, unconditional love that can heal anything.
--
This rain is nuuuuuts. Since when did TN weather get so crazy? I feel like I'm about to have my house cave in on me.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
somewhere only we know
I feel like this weekend's been incredibly short...probably because 5/6ths of my day yesterday was rehearsal. So so much fun, but I am still exhausted. It took massive amounts of willpower to get anything whatsoever done today. Oh calculus. Thanks for standing between me and my senior slide. But seriously you guys, as soon as I'm past AP exams, I am GONE. sayonara. In other news, I still don't know where I want to go to college. Actually, that's a lie. I want to go to LeHigh. I'm just afraid that I'm going to make the wrong choice and screw everything up for all time. Gahhh.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
actually, I can indeed stop the beat.
oh god you guys I am beaaaaaaaat. totally had rehearsal from 9-6:30 tonight and then dinner out for aunt's birthday and I am about to fall over. it's 10:30. I'm going to sleep. zzzzzz.
Friday, April 1, 2011
dogwoods are absolutely gorgeous
The path I take to school and back turns absolutely stunning in the early fall and spring. It's that hill that goes from the old Greenlife up to GPS, the road that goes kind of through a neighborhood-type-thing. And there are trees everywhere. Not little dinky trees either - full, gorgeous, blooming trees that turn the sides of the road different colors. Right now the dogwoods are blooming, and they're incredible. All those white clouds flocking the side of the road, accented here and there by a redbud or tree that's still green. And I rolled down my windows, put on my sunglasses, and I sang my heart out.
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