and I won't hesitate no more, no more

I am absolutely exhaaaausted. But in a good way. But it's starting to look doubtful that I'll make it through the rest of the week.

Let's see, today started with one of the classic Wellsian lectures - this morning it was about modernism. Love Wells, love what he has to say, but I tend to come out of his class in a funk. Next, Jaya and I spend the first five or ten minutes of calculus talking ourselves back into the real world, and the day goes on. This morning was much like that, haha.

May Court shenanigans were super exciting, but I am one tired chick. It was a pretty good day, though - there were a lot of sweet little moments that positively warm my heart.

Poor Elizabeth started crying when Mary Anna brought up her dad in her chapel talk, so I entertwined our fingers until the talk was over and she had calmed down a little bit. I absolutely love Elizabeth, she's one of those people that perks me up on the most dreary days. I was worried that with Laura L leaving for college I would lose my sunshine -- I guess I forgot how many wonderful people are in our grade.

Seriously, let me stop and make a note of this for a second. I was panicking at the end of last year because I thought that when the 2010ers graduated, all the people I loved and respected and wanted to be around would be gone. And I did feel lost and lonely for the first little bit of school, which got even worse with The Epic Fail of A Break-Up. But something changed. I'm not entirely sure what - I think it has something to do with SD, with Eller, with Teddie, with Liz. Finding people I loved being around sort of came around the same time I started loving myself again - it's like I finally believed I was worth a good relationship.

Anyways, stepping off my soapbox now. What I'm trying to say is that I really, truly love the people in my life right now. I know some marvelously beautiful people that I'm going to be heartbroken to let go of. But they've been around right when I needed them, and I'll take their lessons with me as we go off in our different directions.

Anyways. Actually stepping off the soapbox now. I had a voice lesson this afternoon - Mrs. Riddle's teaching me how to belt, haha. My throat is soooore. That plus emotional exhaustion plus dance auditions (Teds and Liz and I rocked our audition group) has culminated into an extreme lack of academic motivation. Unfortunately I have two tests tomorrow. Hmm. Interested to see how this works out.

... :) I love you guys <3 So, so much.

edit: things of note:
1. Called the Ex about May Court...yeah. There's a reason we're not together anymore. 'Nuff said.
2. Eller's back! :) And that makes me a happy person.